The eighth day of the fourth month in the 2729th year of our dispersion.

Body odor is directly related to diet as well as genetics. People in Korea smell different than Americans partly because of the kimchi and other foods they consume. I know a Korean who was adopted at a young age. He doesn't have a noticeable smell, partly because it is masked by American grooming habits, and partly because he eats the same things Americans eat. I have been postulating that eating a healthy, Torah-observant diet would change "body odor" to something less offensive. I am not one hundred percent sure yet, but I do smell differently now than I ever have. A simple layer of rock salt is enough to mask any odor I produce for at least forty-eight hours even under hot, humid, outdoor conditions.

There seem to be more people stumbling across this page. My plan is to continue updating once a week for the next four weeks, and then get back on a regular schedule. I do not return home from work except on the weekends for this current stint of work. I hope to find a better paying job - I have saved every penny (literally) for the past four months, worked very hard, and have really very little to show for it.

As for the Torah "movement" - I still believe יהוה is waking people up to the reality of its eternity. Many accept it, most reject it. I am also still wondering about the greater lights of the other faiths that claim to worship יהוה - Judaism and Christianity. Especially men like Jonathan Edwards and George Meuller - men on whose lives the divine hand seems to have rested. It seems that men have had truths revealed to them by יהוה and miracles performed on their behalf, even though they rejected His law. Perhaps their eyes were just not meant to be opened that far. It reminds me of the Kings of Israel. None of them were as faithful as David was, and it was only for his sake that He prolonged the kingdoms of Israel and Judah so long. But some of them walked in the ways of יהוה halfway; while following some of the Law, they refused to take down the high places and continued to walk in some of the ways of Jereboam. Where is their place in what the Jews call the "World to Come"? Where do they stand in the Kingdom? In the same way, after Messiah, many come who believe in Messiah, reject idols, but misinterpret the law, and do not recognize the identity of the true Messiah. It is one of those questions that I have to think about, since I no longer recognize such a strict dichotomy between the old saints and the new. Who is greater? The father, or the son born to him? Are any of us greater than Abraham, our father in the faith? He never uttered the name of his master, the Son of God who was to come. Not to minimize the work of Messiah or the importance of faith. I just have so many questions. I wish I had a clearer idea of exactly how יהוה deals with individuals, after having believed so long that all one has to do is give intellectual assent to a few statements of doctrine.

The adversary has attacked our fellowship. It is quite disillusioning. The infighting and grievances are exactly what Paul kept writing against in his epistles. I am not sure why it is so hard to reconcile petty differences. I wish the hand of יהוה would come wipe away all of our sins and bring us to repentance and reconciliation. It seems too hard. And yet those of other faiths put us to shame. Muslims have no problem conducting multiple murder-suicides for their god and yet we cannot simply show love to each other for the sake of ours. It sickens and disturbs me. Are there any who follow after יהוה? Are there any who will teach us the whole truth? Are there any who walk as Messiah did?

One of the lies that I think will surface in these last days is the idea that the "power of God" rests in us in some diluted form. Because יהוה has not been as active as he was in the days of the Kings of Israel or in the days of the Messiah for the past two thousand years, and because of the vast increase in man's power and knowledge (though he has forgotten those things which are truly powerful and important), it will be easy for people to believe that somehow God's Power has been given to them or otherwise reduced and that they can successfully fight against him. I have seen this myth surface in several different ways in different forms. It is at least one of the possible tools waiting to deceive the masses. Somehow they will be convinced that they can fight against יהוה. This is another reason that I think many "Christians" must have the wrong god in mind. The entire world will be fighting יהוה, and there are two billion "Christians" who would presumably not turn on their deity so easily. I wish I could see more clearly how that is going to play out. Somehow billions are going to be deceived. Maybe they already are.

That's it for this week. Another five and a half extremely solid days of work ahead.